about the unlucky getting more "unluckier"

arrghhhhhhh!!! what a torture ! have you ever experience bad spells one after another? just yesterday i lost my diamond, today something bad happens. my beloved tabletPC succumbed to old age today/kena petir. just got back from work when my house alarm trigger by the heavy thunder storm and upon walking into my room, my HP TC1105 tabletPC is... dead.

i didn't even manage to say goodbye (properly backup files) alamak... kena buat keluar benda benda tak patut (banyak sangat sebab tu kena panah petir kut) dari HD sebelum hantar servis tengok tengok kalau diaorang boleh kasi hidup balik.

the tabletPC has been with me for 5 years already. been together alot and i am sad kalau kalau dia tak dapat diselamatkan. nak ngangis rasanya.

nasib baik my Media Center PC ada. kalau tidak mati aku... ooit?! dah dekat 6.30pm... kena siap sekarang sebab nak pergi tengok adik adik aku perform. nanti nak balik awal sebelum lagu menuju puncak malam nanti takut sedih tengok sorang lagi adik aku keluar.

about being busy part III...

got this reply in my inbox from one of my dearest friend...

It's a trying situation, i'm sure. Been there, too. But i'm sure what it means is that sipenang misses you. otherwise, mesti tak kesah lah. it's all about time. not enough time spent there, not enough time for you to do more things, at the same time, soon these months will pass and you'll be free again..and bored...and things will go back to more regular routines. Till then, nothing but frustration.

But isn't it unfair how when we are busy, doing what we love, it becomes an issue, when other times we tolerate our partner being busy without complain? We accept that it's part and parcel of what they do and love. We're always making and giving the time so they've come to expect that. So when we're busy, suddenly it's unacceptable.....

thank you dear... kita ni lebih kurang sama lah ye...

about being unlucky and lucky...

one man's misfortune is another man's fortune... that's what happen today.

misfortune SATU :: before leaving my house at 7am for my Akademi Fantasia class this morning, i realised that my maybank ATM card is missing from my wallet. hmmm suddenly i remembered that i didn't take it from the CDM (cash deposit machine) at Curve's Maybank when i made a deposit transaction the night before. mesti kad aku kena telan... takpa.. nanti aku pergi collect. harap harap ada la tu...

misfortune DUA :: 15 Km into my drive to Akademi Fantasia... alamak. mana handphone aku ni? aisyeh... tertinggal kat kitchen masa aku feed my pet, Buzz this morning. Felt realy lost whole morning today. dah lah adik adik AF5 aku pagi tadi mood kureeeng skit. aku kena up kan skit mood mereka.

misfortune TIGA :: lagi 5 Km nak sampai rumah, i suddenly realised that... holy s**t! where's one of my diamond on my ring??? i have this white gold ring with 2 round diamonds and a princess cut diamond. and this particular 35 pointers princess cut diamond is MISSING! jatuh! HILANG! tercabut! tapi kat mana??? dah cari satu kereta... tak jumpa, cari satu rumah, tak jumpa, kat akademi??? tak tau kat mana... tempat tu luas. sedih tak terkira. aku menangis sebab that small little thing has a sentimental value. one of the earliest happy memories. tak lah mahal sangat, tetapi sape yang jumpa, tau tau sajalah... bertuah lah dia.. one man's misfortune is another man's fortune. tapi kalau terjumpa ... tolong pulang balik ye?

balik ke misfortune Dua yang tak habis cerita lagi... sampai rumah dalam dok cari kalau kalau berlian tu jatuh kat rumah, baru teringat handphone yang aku tertinggal tadi... seperti biasa, pagi pagi begini... banyak sms kerja tapi ada satu sms berani mati yang sampai ke handphone aku lebih kurang 5 minit lepas aku tinggalkan handphone tu. dari adik aku yang nombor 4 (yusri/ayi) :: "Assalammualaikum berite terkejut untuk pagi-pagi. Ayi dah tunang. Ayi Suruh umi (ibu tiri kami) hantar tanda je. pergi perak dia cakap dah tunang. maaf langkah 3 bendol. along bila lagi??? hehe wassalam " aku pun duduk garu kepala. bagaimana hari anda???

about ... see for yourself lah...

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about being busy ... part II

Auh! Fening fening fening! Pening kepala dibuatnya, asal aku busy je mesti ada hal yang tak betul, every single time I'm busy with long project surely mesti gaduh dengan SiPenang ...

Habis tu nak buat macam mana?

"Honestly you are really no help to me for the past few years" begitulah sms dari SiPenang... Pedas tak kenyataan tu? Memang salah aku terjun dalam bidang ini but for the 1st time in my whole 31 years of existence I am actually happy with my work- sure it doesn't pay much but at least I know I'm good at it and actually enjoying it.

Aku macam malas nak gaduh dah sebab ini bukan kali pertama. Dulu masa aku buat My Bollywood Summer the musical dengan Nurul pun macam tu. Masa Puteri Gunung Ledang the musical pun macam tu, Sekarang ni bila aku sibuk dengan Urmi aka tempest dan Akademi fantasia, problem sama timbul lagi... projek projek panjang sebegini selalunya memerlukan aku berada di Kuala Lumpur paling kurang 3 bulan. Jadi memang langsung tak dapat balik penang. Oleh kerana tak dapat balik SiPenang jadi marah. Memang sepanjang 10 tahun aku di penang aku lah yang jaga segala urusan duit, peribadi dan pelbagai SiPenang, Aku jadi bingung tak tau nak buat camna lagi dah.

Should I drop everything and balik penang ? And go back to 9to5 job yang lama?

Kebelakangan ini aku tak happy sangat dengan Tempest aka URMI sebab aku tak dapat cari good chemistry dengan my fellow actor but because I'm commicted to my work , aku redah je sessi rehearsal although berat hati nak pergi rehearsal tapi setiap kali habis rehearsal aku happy sebab aku puas hati bekerja. Pergi mampus la perasaan bengkek tu asal aku puas bekerja. SiPenang memang tau problem aku sebab aku tak ada rahsia dengan dia. Tapi patut ke dia cakap ...

"Maybe you should learn to do something else You are not happy and the money is lousy"

aku tak happy dengan 1 orang saja kat tempest tapi i am bloody proud to be part of it and... What did SiPenang means by something else? Aku dah tua la... susah nak start benda baru

Dalam aku dok menulis ni; masuk sms dari Penang : "Sorry to hurt your feelings..."

Tapi memang salah aku sebab tinggalkan penang. the truth is, it's me who hurts dia punya fellings... Tapi bila aku tak busy, sudah semestinya Penang juga lah tempat aku. I love u DA.

about being busy...

hmmm... haven't been writing anything for a very very long time now. been busy that's why... very busy ...

The rehearsal for the new play i am in has been ongoing since early march. to be stage in istana budaya this coming June, I'll be playing as Stephano, the drunken butler in URMI (that's Sanskrit for waves/tempest) a MASAKINI theater adaptation of William Shakespeare's Tempest, by the look of it, this new production is going to be huge! with ligthing design by Mr Mac Chan and The Ever Fabulous Raja Malek doing the sets and directed by Sabera Shaik, can't wait to be on stage again.

Apart from that, Mr me also been busy coaching the Akademi Fantasia 5 students every single morning to do vocalisation has been keeping me from staying late at night because i need to wake up early everyday. on the other hand i am loving it because it is a training for myself too... that's why i keep telling the students not to call me cikgu (teacher) because me being there is not to teach them but to lead them to do morning vocal warm ups until they can do it them self. but I'm loving this because seeing them everyday makes me realize that there are a bunch of multi talented kids and only time will tell that they will be huge... i love them all... dafi with his down to earth personality, dekna with her jokes, noni and her laughs, heliza with her focus, aizat and his "gegaran", shawal and his quite jokes... each and everyone of them has something special.

so i guess busy is good...