About Turning 39

4 more days before i enter my final 30s lap... going to be 39 soon. Next year I'll be 40! .

Although my mind is telling me i am still young, but lately my body is telling me otherwise... my vision is blurry, my back is aching, my knee is weak, my hairline is receding, my gray hair is multiplying and the list can go on and on...

Have i achieved my goals in life?  No.  But i hope i can get there soon.

I started late in realising the goal of life... i hope it is not too late to recover the life i lost during my "jahiliah" days. I hope Allah grant me more years to "betulkan landasan hidup" and hope my wish came true.  I want a big family. If you are reading this,  please include me in your doas for Allah to grant me and my wife a huge family. Soon. Asap. Secepat mungkin. Seramai mungkin...

Tq in advance

FB memutus dan menyambung silaturahim , kita pilih yang mana kita mahu

Salam perkenalan, ini Adik Wan Zambry

Saya kenalkan pada kengkawan, ini adik Zambry, anak jiran bawah umah semasa kami tinggal di flat Kenanga KTM, Lama betul tak berjumpa Adik Zam atau nama sebenarnya , Wan Zambry...

Pernah terserempak tanpa sempat berbual pada 1996/7 di LRT Bangsar semasa pintu LRT ditutup dan sekali lagi secara ringkas pada hari raya 2009 tanpa sempat berbual...

Kalau nak dikira kirakan, keluarga adik Zam dan kami agak rapat dahulunya dan boleh dikira sebagai keluarga.

Adik Zam pernah mengaji dengan arwah Abah dan juga mak ngah Timah (adik arwah mak) dan kemudiannya ayah adik Zam, pakcik Wan Samsudin pula telah menemukan jodoh mak ngah Timah dengan sepupunya , ayah saudara saya sekarang , Pak Rahim...

Saya sendiri semasa dizaman persekolahan pernah digossipkan dengan salah seorang adik beradik Adik Zam (tak perlulah cerita lebih lebih hehehe) gossip zaman sekolah ni rekaan semata mata! Bukan betul pun... Kami yang digossipkan ni makin la malunya bila bersua. Kesian kat dia...

Diawal mula mula saya mencari calon isteri dulu pun saya telah cuba di"keneng-keneng"kan oleh mak ngah Timah dengan salah seorang ahli keluarga adik Zambry juga... Tapi nak buat camana... Jodoh tuhan telah tentukan untuk saya dan CikWifey saya... Alhamdulillah... jadinya... Bak kata teman sebaya Wan Zambry dan juga classmate adik saya Amin... Takyah cerita, "Biarlah Rahsia!" Hehehe

Adik Zam dari fizikal memang la dah besar panjang berbanding budak kecil yang berlari bawah rumah sambil main Rounders dulu... Nakal tak juga, nakal lagi saya ! Tapi muka tetap sama dan lesung pipit tetap ada kekal kedalamannya. Kalau jumpa tepi jalan insyaAllah boleh kenal.

Setelah baru berhubung diFB , minggu lepas baru kami berkesempatan bertemu... Banyak cerita lama kami singkap, mengenai adik beradik, mengenai abah, mengenai zaman kecil...

Alhamdulillah 3 sudah cahaya matanya (kalau x silap) dan masih ramah seperti dulu. Punyai pekerjaan mulia menjaga pesakit dan terutamanya orang orang tua yang tidak sihat...

FB juga telah sambungkan tali persaudaraan kami setelah sekian lama tak berhubung ... Ini pun secara tak sengaja ... Melalui friend list sahabat Mutual kami...

So kalau ada yang sekarang boleh bergaduh , putus hubungan dek kerana FB, ada juga yang memanfaatkan social media untuk eratkan silaturahim .

Saban hari saya terbaca status status yang berbaur pergaduhan, ada juga yg hebat bergaduh walaupun tidak pernah bersua! cuma hanya di alam cyber pun boleh gaduh!

apa kata kita semua, kala bila ada masa terluang, cuba berjumpa dengan rakan FB kita, eratkan persahabatan dan bercerita tentang persahabatab seperti yang saya lakukan ini, mungkin banyak yang baik boleh kita kongsikan bersama insyaAllah...

#kawanLama #keluarga

I miss Abah dan Mak so much tonight…

Before i begin , Alfatihah

Every time when people ask me who I resemble most, I have always said I look more like my mum, her nose, her face moles are located almost identical with mine but hers are on the right side and mine was on the left side.

For the longest time I always say that I look like my mom and that my brother Yusmin (Amin) looks more like Abah … True to a certain degree… The way Amin stands and walk is almost abah’s duplicate! And the fact that Amin love ‘Kerja tukang’ and repairing motorbikes are exactly my dad’s hobby.

I am more of the artistic type! I love songs and singing and URTV and poems and novels which are exactly like mother’s hobby…

Plus the fact that I feared my dad more as he was a very strict dad. Rotan, belt and rubber hose are like gloves to Abah… I always turn to mak for anything…

When I decided to leave Kuala Lipis for Kuala lumpur after SPM in 1992, Abah was my main deciding factor in doing so… I always thought that I was never his favorite… Amin was… So I was never that close to Abah… He was such a HARD person…

But when Mak fell sick of renal complications early 1997 and eventually passed away in 1998, during one of the tahlil for my mum, I saw abah as this lonely, frail and SOFT man…

When he decided to marry again, with the help of my new UMI, I started to understand Abah… When he also started to show illness and renal related complications, I slowly make myself closer to Abah… When he lost his eyesight in 2002, I became closer and closer to him. The only problem was that I was living in Penang and back then, traveling back home was a challenge for me…

When Abah passed away, only then I realized how much I missed him and how much I regretted not wanting to understand him more before …

When I got hold of some of Abah’s photo to scan only the. I got comments that I resemble Abah more that mak… Just last month I was approached on Facebook by abah’s long lost friend asking me if I am Che Yusoff Muda’s son simply because he said my eyes reminded him of abah… When my wife saw Abah and mak’s vintage wedding photos she commented I look so much like Abah, only then I slowly dug out abah’s old photos… Not yet accepting it fully but slowly recognizing it…

Tonight as my wife who is away in JB asked how was I doing, I send her this photo of myself as I usually do to cheer her up….

When I saw this photo of mine, I suddenly cried because I saw my father in me … The eye, the lips, the beard, the stare, the hair and the messy unbutton white polo shirt and messy collar… I saw Abah

Btw, that’s me at the age of 15 smiling widely behind my Abah taken during hari raya. A rare photo, to see me that cheerful when Abah is around as I am always fearful of him…

Allahhuakbar… I miss Abah and mak so much tonight…

As tears falling down, I decided to write this and I started it with Bismillah and Al-Fatihah and now as I almost reaching the end I this note, I hope you, my friends who is reading this, please give Al-Fatihah to my Abah and Mak and the ones we love …

Thank You

Abah dan Mak, along rindu sangat…
Al-Fatihah…
Assalamuaikum …

(Taken with Instagram at Bandar Sri Damansara)

wifeless for the weekend

Adik ipar saya baru je beranak dapat anak lelaki so the whole family flew down to JB nak sambut baby baru but i tak dapat ikut… so i kiranya wifeless la for the weekend… ya ya ya most of you probably think i'll be shouting YEA MERDEKA but honestly no since i still have my second wife tagging along… my work

it is no fun when at the same time the third wife pula singgah … mrs. Ulcer… sakit mulut la pulat melayan ulcer ni… makan tak sedap pedih memanjang… nak wat canna … layan

btw, berkenaan gambar ni… setibanya CikWifey di JB, first whatsapp msg from her was …"Br Sampai JB day winduuuuu kat abg huhuhu" so my reply to her was this series of photos with captions of "muka blur", "muka rindu", "muka kusut" and etc… can you guess which is which and maybe u can put your own …

semoga weekend anda lebih sempurna ...

Kalau anda stress tahap gaban

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Selamat la dah takkan stress lagi selepas itu

What is stress????

Stress typically describes a negative concept that can have an impact on one’s mental and physical well-being, but it is unclear what exactly defines stress and whether or not stress is a cause, an effect, or the process connecting the two. With organisms as complex as humans, stress can take on entirely concrete or abstract meanings with highly subjective qualities, satisfying definitions of both cause and effect in ways that can be both tangible and intangible.

I AM SOOOOO STRESSS!!!!!
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