Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Pemuda : Anda siapa dan apakah bisa menjawab pertanyaan- pertanyaan saya?
Kiyai : Saya hamba Allah dan dengan izin-Nya saya akan menjawab pertanyaan anda.
Pemuda : Anda yakin? Sedangkan profesor dan ramai orang yang pintar tidak mampu menjawab pertanyaan saya.
Kiyai : Saya akan mencuba sejauh kemampuan saya.
Pemuda : Saya ada 3 pertanyaan:
1. Kalau memang tuhan itu ada, tunjukkan wujud tuhan kepada saya
2. Apakah yang dinamakan takdir
3. Kalau syaitan diciptakan dari api, kenapa dimasukkan mereka ke neraka yang dibuat dari api; tentu tidak menyakitkan buat syaitan. Sebab mereka memiliki unsur yang sama. Apaka h tuhan tak berfikir sejauh itu?
Tiba-tiba kiyai tersebut menampar pipi pemuda tadi dengan keras.
Pemuda : ( sambil menahan sakit ) Kenapa anda marah kepada saya?
Kiyai : Saya tidak marah, tamparan itu adalah jawapan kepada 3 pertanyaan yang anda tujukan pada saya.
Pemuda : Saya sungguh-sungguh tidak mengerti.
Kiyai : Bagaimana rasanya tamparan saya?
Pemuda : Tentu saja saya merasakan sakit.
Kiyai : Jadi anda percaya bahawa sakit itu ada?
Pemuda : Ya!
Kiyai : Tunjukkan pada saya wujud sakit itu!
Pemuda : Saya tidak boleh.
Kiyai : Itulah jawapan pertanyaan pertama..., kita merasakan kewujudan Tuhan tanpa mampu melihat wujudnya.
Pemuda : ...
Kiyai : Apakah malam tadi anda bermimpi anda akan menerima tamparan dari saya hari ini?
Pemuda : Tidak.
Kiyai : Apakah pernah terfikir oleh anda akan menerima tamparan dari saya hari ini?
Pemuda : Tidak.
Kiyai : Itulah yang dinamakan takdir.
Pemuda : ...
Kiyai : Terbuat dari apa tangan yang saya gunakan untuk menampar anda?
Pemuda : Kulit.
Kiyai : Terbuat dari apa pipi anda?
Pemuda : Kulit.
Kiyai : Bagaimana rasanya tamparan saya?
Pemuda : Sakit.
Kiyai : Walaupun syaitan dijadikan daripada api, dan neraka juga diperbuat dari api; Jika tuhan menghendaki maka neraka akan menjadi tempat yang menyakitkan untuk syaitan.
Monday, September 04, 2006
but then again, You've worked hard for everything you have. So be proud of your accomplishments ... despite how they may compare to other people's. Everyone is on their own journey through life, and comparing yourself to others doesn't create healthy energy. should you be somehow, challenged to keep a harmonious balance between being generous and conserving your gains, it's wiser for you to err on the side of keeping what you have. i know my journey is still so very far... tak nampak pun penamatnya lagi... and i hope i won't stop at any rest&relax without any good reason before i reach there...
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!
Apa itu merdeka? Party all night? Jumping at concert all night? Rempit all night? Or perhaps tengok bunga api all night?
Me... It's time for self reflection, rest and remembering those who left us with Merdeka. Be it for the country, for our mind or even our soul.
But still, dah merdeka kah kita ni?
Yes i know love is blind... so blind that love can be sad and happy at the same time. that's why i am trapped in the darkness of love that my biggest regret was to just simply let it go...
this path to love blinded my heart... so blind that i can't even imagine what's ahead... but not wanting to be defeated... not wanting to be left behind in all the darkness... i found my senses... my own path.
and i am back again at the beginning... let go... let's go... perhaps new light awaits me? perhaps...
You cry, you mourn, you are sad for your lost but if you are that sad how about those who are closer to them even more than you? Their wife? Their husband? Their kid? It must be worst than you can already feel. What can you do? Just be there for them... miss you heaps.
why? why? why?
why ask? why denies things that's so clearly there or perhaps WAS there, perhaps I should say the answer to this is simply because we are all simply just lonely... i know i am... that's why i ask...
enough said.. don't understand what I'm talking about... nevermind... pretend you understand
what can we do in this situation? Try to find some neutral ground. 'cooperation' is the word...And keep your senses of humor, that's what I'll do... if you do keep struggling and end up collapsing, hopefully it'll be in a giggling heap. I did it and it's true of what they say... laughter is always the best medicine... no matter how hard you fought. try and laugh, you'll feel better. i know i did. how's your day by the way. just hope i can laugh with the one i want... quizas... je manque mon ciel... but then again...
why not take the test yourself and see for yourself here www.colorgenics.com/sps/
if you want to know what mine said... here it is ...
Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting back and the going is tough.
Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.
You feel that you deserve far more than is being attributed to you, but there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realize that you will have to make the best of things as they are.
As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.
There is that inherent fear that you may be prevented from attaining the better things in life - those things that you consider essential to your well-being. So you are prepared to try everything to prove to yourself that whatever you do or try will go wrong. This destructive attitude could come under the heading of 'a self fulfilling prophecy'. This belittling yourself is your method of disguising how hopeless and what a waste of time you feel that everything is. So now turn it about. As you 'think', so you are... So 'imagine' yourself successful. 'Pretend', 'act it out' and you may be pleasantly surprised at the outcome.
lately, my mind is so full of ideas. i started writing again after so long! my novel is far from finish but i am so excited with what's coming out of me now... and yesterday i was humming to 3 new tunes! a ballad, an angry uptempo number and believe it or not an asli song! only thing is if only i have the proper channel to put this songs to...
they are everywhere but only a matter if we recognize them or we acknowledge their existence within us. the force is strong this one has. they can be so nice, friendly and at the same time they took advantages on us. some of us even trusted them. for all you know those 6 months rent that you pay didn't go directly to the landlord but to the foe you know. what did you get in the end? a fight at the guardhouse with sepak, tampar, terajang with police patrol car suddenly appeared... how did it end? dunno. don't care. but all things must have some good things behind it all... because while the fights was watch by all, a Friend manage to get to know someone who happens to be there watching... romance coming... who knows
this friend in question, (hello... dah call ke belum) happens to be the nicest around. when trouble came upon me... offered his help he did, drove me to get my car fixed, sent me back to pick my car later without me asking for help. even came down to help me cover my car with plastic for temporary measure and suddenly met my new closest friend who happens to be with me the whole night helping... (padan katanya... apa tu?)
so this new closest friend i have... tired from work came to the rescue... took me to police beat to report, took me to police HQ to further my report (unnecessary but that's how the system goes) although tired this friend is, although somewhere else this new friend had to be at... no complaints, no grouch, just pure sincerity.
foes, friendly foes, friendly friends, closest friends, friends... have them with me, love them all... how was your day today? mine was great.
WAH serata KL berjalan nampaknya...
je t'aime parce que vous êtes beau, ou êtes-vous beau parce que je t'aime ?
Est-ce que je faisant crois je que voient dans vous une fille suis trop beau à être vraiment vraie ?
Est-ce que je vous veux parce que vous êtes merveilleux, ou suis vous merveilleux parce que je vous veux ?
Êtes-vous l'invention douce du rêve d'un amoureux ou êtes-vous vraiment aussi beau que vous semblez ?
in english for those who don't read french
Do I love you because you're beautiful, or are you beautiful because I love you?
Am I making believe I see in you a girl too lovely to be really true?
Do I want you because you're wonderful, or are you wonderful because I want you?
Are you the sweet invention of a lover's dream or are you really as beautiful as you seem?
from the broadway musical cinderella